warm hugs and warm cookies

 

 

 

 

 

I never imagined writing on anything anywhere that my Gramma Sullivan was gone.  She passed away yesterday, and it still seems like such a bad dream. This picture was taken the last time we saw her, in June before we left for our Disney cruise.  She was my favorite.  I felt special to her.  Every good childhood memory I have is with her.  I can't believe I'll never taste her food again or get a card from her in the mail.  I'll never hear her say, "hey sweetie!" when she answers the phone.  I'll never hear her tell me she loves me again.  I know she meant it.  So many of the things I do remind me of her.  I have no idea how to not miss her every minute of every day.  She lived so far away for most of my life, but she has always been such a big part of my heart.  I have so many good memories.  I know she knew I loved her so much. She was the holiest woman I knew and I know she is in heaven and free from pain or suffering.  Her rosary beads were smooth because she held them and rubbed them between her fingers so much.  She knew the saint to pray to for everything, and made sure to pray for everyone she loved every day.  She loved Kirk so much, and she enjoyed seeing him grow.  I sent her pictures of him every few months, and she always loved hearing about what he was doing and saying.  She always said he reminded her of me as a child, full of life and always entertaining.  In my family I was one of many, but with her I always knew I was number one.  This is the first real death I've dealt with that has affected me this way.  My heart physically hurts.  I dread going into her house in a few days without her there.  I dread seeing her in a casket.  I can't even think about leaving after it is all over and never feeling her or seeing her again.  Life is hard.  She taught me what it means to serve God.  She taught me what it looks and feels like to serve your family. She had the biggest heart and the sweetest smile.  She taught me how to be a Gramma, and I just hope I can have the warmest hugs and freshly made chocolate chip cookes someday......just like she did.  I will miss her love so much. 

 

 

Spring has sprung (hopefully!)

I haven't posted in forever!  One would think with 32 snow days the past 2 months I would have had plenty of time to post on my blog.....however, it seemed day after day life got in the way.  Kirk and I have made it through what has hopefully been the worst winter we will see for a while.  We played in the snow more times that I cared for, and we exhausted the tri state for day time entertainment (which is dismal, at best).  We also exhausted my bank account because all of the day time entertainment around here costs money!!  I tried each day to be grateful for this time with my big boy who will start kindergarten in less than 6 months.....too hard to believe!  We enjoyed some lazy days, too, and wore our pajamas way more than we should.  We're back to school/work tomorrow, and we're praying we can finish this school year out with no interruptions!

Kirk and I enjoyed some time outside yesterday and some ice cream afterwards.  It is amazing to me how much more I enjoy playing with Kirk and how much energy I have.  Eating healthy foods has changed so much for me, and my ability to run and play with my best boy is one of the biggest perks by far!

 

It's no secret that I love TOMS.  I have too many pairs to talk about, but I added 3 more this week.  The Zulily sale is something I look forward to and I was so excited to pick up these 3 pair for an amazing price!!  I especially love the green cordones pictured below, and I can't wait to wear them to Marshall games!

I'm looking forward to geting back to school this week and feeling "normal" again.  I have enjoyed my time off, though, and I have really gotten addicted to yoga classes and Club Cardio.  It feels great to be able to excercise without being out of breath or in pain!  I am so thankful that I can take time for myself and that Jeremy stays with Kirk when I go to classes.  He has been so supportive of all the changes I've made, and his biggest support is cooking almost all of our (healthy) meals.  I'm looking forward to our trip to Pigeon Forge in a few weeks and I am definitley welcoming warmer weather!